Mantera Anjasmorooooo dan MissMawar........ hihihi

hii.... seram pulak aku tgk gambo kt atas... hiii hiiii hiiiii~ korang tgk tak citer ni... mawar plak terlayan la pulak citer ni... pelakon dia pun hebat2... tp sure ramai yg menyampah sbb lately ni byk sgt cerite cerite seraaammmm kurapaatttt cenggni kan.... kecuali citer cer citerr cer citerr hahahaha... antu kakak imoh kata marissa..

cantik kan kaki eja.. hahaha

sebenornye kan citer ni kan ade citer dia pasal hilang baby melalui mimpi... n i am not sure hilang mcm mana.. hilang terus gugur ke atau xgugur tp tgk2 xde ilang mcm tu saje... well actually mawar pernah experience bende nih... but mawar baby xilang tp gugur...

citer nye mcm ni.....wahhh saspeennn jer kann... b4 mawar pregnant kan marissa mawar pernah pregnant and miscarriage... gugur masa kandungan dh masuk 11 weeks plus dh... yup, maybe xde rezeki but sebenarnye ade citer sebaliknye... uols nk percaya terpulang bcoz lillahi taala ni bukan cerite rekaan... just i nk kongsi my xperience towards this thing...

after 6 mth married, syukur i get pregnant... of coz nothing in this world could describe how was my feeling... sudah terbyg2 mcm mcm excitement nih... but yg pelik b4 i nk pregnant ni i slalu mimpi yg i buat pregnancy test and i pregnant... waktu tu i xtau lg i pregnant walaupun i dh delay period.. pastu tiap mlm i akan mimpi without fail, sampai i takut nk tido... mimpi i ni mcm ada bersambung2... mula2 i test kan, pastu esok i mcm period n dlm mimpi tu sedih.. sedih sgt.. pastu i mimpi i pregnant balik.. so nk kan kepastian i ambik jugak pregnancy test (ni in real life lah) n yup i was pregnant.. waktu tu i dh 6 weeks... n then eeesoookkk nye tu i spotting... huwaaa i dh cuak ok... dr spotting jd staining.. n then terus pg jumpa doc..

pg jumpa doc, doc scan tengok the sac ada but xde embrio... so doc kata maybe it s too early too detect... she suggest to come back at 8 weeks... ok lah, i balik n she gave me ubat hormon bg kuat rahim... n bila mlm menjelma jer i akan mimpi yg pelik2... mimpi i bleed so heavy la... and pastu kang i mimpi i masuk toilet nk pee, baby terkeluar n i terflush la... n pastu ada satu mimpi tu i kene masuk ward n then the nurse cakap eh baby u mati la nk kena bwk keluar... serius scary i ada skali i nangih n bila sedar pun mmg ye tgh nangih... nasib laki aku xprasan.. sbbnye tuan director tu tido mati.. hahaha

and the bleeding keeps on going on and makin teruk pulak... mungkin byk bgerak n waktu tu pun tgh praktikal so i ambik mc... duduk rehat bleeding ok.. ok lah i tot ok lah tu.. oh ya b4 that i pg balik buat scan tp mmg xada... still xnampak... doc kata xpe wait untill 12 weeks.. so i pun ok la..
sampai la dh nk masuk 11 weeks, n dia start spotting... i pun dh malas nk layan buat xtau... pastu lama dia jd byk... tp doc kata kalau xcramping ok lg kan... and pd satu hari tu, i ajak tuan director pg beli seluar materniti sbb seluar dh xmuat... hahaha... jd pg lah shopping ke Jusco... tgh jln2 tu tiba2 i rasa ada org rentap kt rahim i... serius i xtipu... i boleh rasa, n rentapan tu mcm nk luruh jugak jantung i... terus lepas tu jantung i berdebar debar... rasa nk nangih.... n from that moment i tahu smthg was wrong... terus ajak tuan director balik... terpinga pinga kawan... hahaha.. dia tanya knapa, i diam...

tak lama lepas tu perut i sakit.. mlm tu i pg rumah my mom pinggang i sakit gila... mcm nk putus... n i ckp ma, rasenye nk gugur ni... n my mom ckp nk buat mcm mana kalau dh nk gugur...
n yup.. malam tu i tumpah darah.... sebelum tido tu my instinct ckp mesti gugur nih, so i dh lapik siap2 cadar takut habis kena darah... pastu i lapik dgn selimut yg tebal.... my instinct was right... i terjaga sbb perut rasa memulas mulas gila.. waktu tu pkul 1pg n i rasa bwh i basah.... ooohh noo, habis bsh lenjun.. i bgn senyap2 xkejut TD sbb dia kang pitam tgk darah melambak tu... bwk siap kain yg dh kene + selimut pun habis kene bwk pg toilet... masuk toilet i rasa mcm smthg nk terkeluar terus duduk kt toilet bowl n bluussshhhh keluar darah yg byk n the baby... n tiba2 i terrecall back my dream... n lepas tu keluar darah mmg banyak sampai lembik lutut i n blackout kejap... dlm hati mintak doa kt tuhan supaya kuatkan semangat bg tenaga nk bgn.. sbb bgn pun dh lembik2 lutut... tp dlm lembik2 lutut tu sempat la basuh kain2 yg terkena darah n cuci toilet... kang pengsan pulak org yg masuk toilet... n waktu tu pun i still staying at my PIL's house...

pastu gigil2 la masuk bilik... cari kain batik dh le xde pulak.. haha.. padan muka eksyen sgt xnk pkai kain batik kan... jd pkai la kain pelikat TD... hahaha... terus baring n tertido sbb maybe i am exhausted.... terjaga subuh baru i tell TD cakap i miscarriage... and ask him to sent me to the hospital... pkul 8 pg i pg hospital admitted, doc scan n tgk sac ada lg so they suggest to perform dnc...

and what happened next??? apa kaitan mantera anjasmoro dgn this miscarriage? jeng jeng jengg... kene tunggu next entry.... sbb lepas ni i akan kaitkan semua ...panjang sgt kanggg muntah baca.... kita rilek2 dulu... ;)